I have been meaning to share a life update on here for several months now but life has been so busy! For those of you that are new here, I was in a relationship with Sage’s father Schyler for almost 10 years, but we split up a little over halfway through my pregnancy due to his mental health issues. I held out a lot of hope that if he was able to get help, we would somehow be able to be a family again. Although he was able to get help eventually, and is doing better, it became very clear that would not be possible. It’s not something that I ever thought would happen before I got pregnant and this whole situation has been very tough to share, but unfortunately that has been my reality. I gave everything I had to give in that relationship and it was very hard for me to come to terms with the fact that love is sometimes not enough. But at least I can say that I know in my heart that I tried everything I could to help him, especially for Sage. Sharing our story has been difficult and very vulnerable, but I know that I made the right choice in doing so because of how many people, particularly other single moms, have reached out.

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Sage will always be my main focus, but I have started dating again which I’m very excited about! It’s funny because when I became single at 6 months pregnant, the idea of dating again horrified me. I was worried about having to explain my situation and whether or not someone would accept Sage and I into their lives. I knew that it would take a certain kind of person with a really big heart and that it wouldn’t be impossible, but most likely challenging to find that person. It was very overwhelming and scary for me because I met Schyler when I was 20, so I never really did the whole dating thing and definitely never did dating apps. I made a promise to myself that I would start dating again when my baby was 6 months old to give myself time to heal. After I had Sage, my hormones were so out of whack, postpartum was very tough for me as a single mom and just learning how to take care of a newborn. But once I got the hang of things, I started doing meditations and affirmations which completely changed my whole outlook on life and perspective about myself. I had felt a lot of guilt and shame for a long time wondering if I had missed signs or if I could have done things differently in my relationship with Schyler. But I now realize that I am someone with a big capacity for love and that is an amazing quality to have.

When I was about 4 months postpartum, I started feeling differently about dating and the idea of it actually started to make me feel excited and hopeful. I had done a lot of inner work on myself by this point and I think my hormones had finally regulated a little bit which probably made a big difference. I decided one day to go ahead and start a dating profile on Hinge. It took me awhile to figure out how to navigate the app at first! I matched with a lot of guys who stopped messaging me I’m assuming once they figured out I was a single mom, or maybe they just got busy, who knows. It was a bit of a bummer when I would be messaging someone and one of their first questions would be if the dad was in the picture, which I know is a valid question but maybe one that should be asked after getting to know me a little bit. But there were several guys who were still open after learning I was a single mom and my story which gave me a lot of hope! I ended up meeting someone very special really quickly, which I had never excepted to happen. That’s all I want to share for now, but if that changes I will be sure to update you guys on here.

Thank you so much for following along with me on my journey! I hope you stick around <3

XOXO